Archive for September, 2010

Dear everyone
September 30, 2010

My name is Gossip. I have no respect for justice. I maim without killing. I break hearts and ruin lives. I am cunning, malicious and gather strength with age. The more I am quoted, the more I am believed. I flourish at every level of society. My victims are helpless. They cannot protect themselves against me because I have no name and no face. To track me down is impossible. The harder you try, the more elusive I become. I am nobody’s friend. Once I tarnish a reputation, it is never the same. I topple governments and wreck marriages. I ruin careers and cause sleepless nights, heartaches and indigestion. I spawn suspicion and generate grief. I make innocent people cry in their pillows. Even my name hisses. I am called Gossip. Office gossip – shop gossip – party gossip – telephone gossip. I make headlines and headaches. Remember, before you repeat a story, ask yourself: is it true? Is it fair? Is it necessary? If not, do not repeat it. Keep quiet! Great minds discuss ideas, average minds discuss events, shallow mind discuss people. 

The countdown begins…
September 26, 2010

1 — Your Best Friend
2 — Your Crush
3 — Your parents

4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)
5 — Your dreams

6 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love
7 — Someone who always makes you happy
8 — Someone you wish you could meet
9 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to

10 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain

11 — Someone you wish could forgive you

12 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
13 — The person you miss the most

14 — Someone from your childhood

15 — The one that broke your heart the hardest

16 — Yourself at 13

17 — Someone that pesters your mind – Good or bad
18 — Someone you want to give a second chance to

19 — The last person you kissed
20— The last person you made a pinky promise to

21 — Someone that changed your life


Dear Beverly,

This past week or so have been crazy. I honestly do not know what to say to you anymore because I know what I am doing is hurting you, but I don’t necessarily feel like what I am doing is wrong. We may not be the best of friends, but I do consider you a friend, and I do not want to cause you pain. But trying to let go…I just can’t do it. I am not planning on taking things farther than they have gone, because I am content with how things are going. It just like how I can’t go up to Alton and tell him I’m sorry for liking Chad or for moving on. It is just how it happened and no matter what I do, I am going to hurt someone. And no offense to everyone but I am sick of pleasing everyone. I have been so frustrated with how inconsiderate people can be, not to mention immature. I don’t want or need to deal with it, so I’m not going to. I only have one more year stuck in this place, and the year I have left, I’m not going to have any regrets. So let’s make the best of this year and try to put all of our differences aside.

When you wish upon a star…
September 19, 2010

Everyone’s wondering where she gets that smile from when everything in her life is looking so downhill. Everyone’s wondering how she can be so happy when it seems like her world is falling apart. Everyone’s wondering how she can keep on laughing when she’s doing things against her own will. Everyone’s wondering how she can light up a room, when he just broke her heart.

She’s never been one to wait around. She is always moving and dancing and running. But for some reason, with him, she is patient. She’ll wait. She’ll wait for nobody, and nothing else, except him.


When there has been so much love and happiness for someone, it is natural to be reluctant to close such a wonderful chapter in our lives, for moving forward is rarely accomplished without considerable grief and sadness. And while our sorrow may be profound, the clouds will clear, and the sun will shine on us again. And in that warm, bright light we will find ourselves facing a glorious future. A future of exciting challenges and infinite possibilities, in which the horizon will stretch out before us, trimmed in the heavenly glow of the sunrise of our tomorrow. 

The Prince & Me


I believe that we are who we choose to be. Nobody is going to
come and save you; you’ve got to save yourself. Nobody is
going to give you anything; you’ve got to go out and fight for it.
Nobody knows what you want except for you. And nobody will
be as sorry as you if you don’t get it. So, don’t give up on your
dreams.

So lets dance in the rain; play in the snow. Let’s gaze at the stars until the sun decides to show. Let’s watch movies until we can barely keep our eyes open. But more importantly… lets do all of it together.

Over the course of the average lifetime, you meet a lot of people. Some of them stick with you through thick and thin. Some weave their way through your life and disappear forever. But once in a while someone comes along who earns a permanent place in your heart.

Don’t let the world bring you down. Not everyone here is that fucked up and cold. Remember why you came and while you’re alive, experience the warmth before you grow old.

I suggest that you don’t come back when you need someone, because I’m done wasting my time.

So, you made a lot of mistakes, walked down the road a little sideways, cracked a brick when you hit the wall. Yeah, you’ve had a pocket full of regrets, pull you down faster than a sunset. Hey, it happens to us all.

Two of the hardest tests in life: The patience to wait for the right moment and the courage to accept that you’ve waited for nothing.

Let’s play hopscotch in malls. Let’s drive fast with the top down. Let’s turn up the music as loud as it’ll go. Let’s put a couch on an island in the middle of the freeway and wave at everyone on their way to work. Let’s hug strangers in parking lots. Let’s hand out secret messages at traffic lights. Let’s make lists of all the things that make us smile and tick them off, one at a time. The world will carry on without you and me when we’re gone. Let it carry on without us, today.

Music makes you lose control
September 11, 2010

My best friend gave me the best advice
He said each day’s a gift and not a given right
Leave no stone unturned, leave your fears behind
And try to take the path less traveled by
That first step you take is the longest stride

Against the grain should be a way of life
What’s worth the prize is always worth the fight
Every second counts ’cause there’s no second try
So live like you’ll never live it twice
Don’t take the free ride in your own life

If Today Was Your Last Day; Nickelback

She’s all laid up in bed with a broken heart, 
While I’m drinking jack all alone in my local bar, 
And we don’t know how, 
How we got in to this mad situation, 
Only doing things out frustration, 
Trying to make it work but man these times are hard

For The First Time; The Script


I’ve been beaten down, I’ve been kicked around, 
But she takes it all for me. 
And I lost my faith, in my darkest days, 
But she makes me want to believe. 
They call her love, love, love, love, love.

She Is Love; Parachute


Do you remember we were sittin’ there by the water?
You put your arm around me for the first time
You made a rebel of a careless man’s careful daughter
You are the best thing that’s ever been mine

Flash forward and we’re taking on the world together
And there’s a drawer of my things at your place
You learned my secrets and you figure out why I’m guarded
You say we’ll never make my parents’ mistakes

Mine; Taylor Swift


You think I’m pretty
Without any make-up on
You think I’m funny
When I tell the punch line wrong
I know you get me
So I let my walls come down
Down…

Teenage Dream; Katy Perry

I tried to paint you a picture, the colors were all wrong
Black and white didn’t fit you and all along,
you were shaded with patience, your strokes of everything
That I need just to make it, and I can see that…
Lord knows I’ve failed you, time and again
But you and me are all right

We won’t say our goodbyes you know it’s better that way
We won’t break, we won’t die
It’s just a moment of change
All we are, all we are, is everything that’s right
All we need, all we need, a lover’s alibi

All We Are; OneRepublic

Why is everything so complicated?
September 8, 2010

Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being “in love” which any of us can convince ourselves we are. Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident. Your mother and I had it, we had roots that grew towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossom had fallen from our branches we found that we were one tree and not two.
St. Augustine

Do you remember
September 7, 2010

1 — Your Best Friend
2 — Your Crush
3 — Your parents

4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)
5 — Your dreams
6 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love
7 — Someone who always makes you happy
8 — Someone you wish you could meet
9 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
10 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain

11 — Someone you wish could forgive you

12 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
13 — The person you miss the most

14 — Someone from your childhood

15 — The one that broke your heart the hardest

16 — Yourself at 13

17 — Someone that pesters your mind – Good or bad
18 — Someone you want to give a second chance to

19 — The last person you kissed
20— The last person you made a pinky promise to

21 — Someone that changed your life


Chad,
Honestly, I don’t know if it’s you I miss the most. But since you’re the first person who came to mind, I’m guessing it’s true, no matter how much I want to deny it. I have made such huge strides in the past week. I have no idea how I did it. I thought for sure that I would be absolutely miserable for the rest of the year, counting down the days until I left for college and didn’t have to see anyone I didn’t want to see ever again. While I am still looking forward to a fresh start, I have accepted what happened. I’ve accepted that I made mistakes, over and over, and I learned from it. Maybe a little too late, but I learned. 
I caught your eye today and as sad as it made me, it also made me realize I really am going to be okay. We shared a moment over our official “date,” September 21st, and I’ll probably never look at that day the same. When I see the number 9 or 21, I automatically think of you. But when I looked at you, I couldn’t help but smile. You still mean a lot to me, no matter what has happened these past few months.
You may not think so, but I’ve discovered that I am a lot stronger than I give myself credit for. I am happy. And I know I deserve that happiness. And, I really am happy for you, Chad. This is what you wanted, and I am happy that you got what you wanted. One day, I hope we look back on all of this and laugh. Teenage love is a funny thing isn’t it?

Independence
September 3, 2010

There’s nothing I like to see more than a girl going from crying to smiling with no one around. Because this is the girl who has truly found her inner strength and doesn’t need another person to make her happy.

If you can’t solve it, it isn’t a problem – it’s reality. And sometimes reality is the hardest thing to understand and the thing that takes the longest to realize. But once it hits you in the face you’ll never forget it. It will always be there in your memories and sometimes that is the best way to look at it.

She wants to be with him. And he, whether he’ll admit it or not, wants to be with her, too. And yet they’re not together, which is not only unjust, but really, when you think about it, tragical.

You spend all your time preaching about waiting for love. Well here it is, right in front of you, and you’re going to turn your back on it. So i guess we’re just fucked. I’ll move on. But you are going to have to live the rest of your life knowing that you’ve turned your back on love, and that makes you a hypocrite. Have a nice life.

The more you hide your feelings for someone,
the more you fall for them.

And even though we know we shouldn’t love them, we do and always will. Because there are just a small number of people in this world who will “get” us for the reasons we can’t explain, even when they shouldn’t.

Love is fragile. And we’re not always its best caretakers. We just muddle through and do the best we can. And hope this fragile thing survives against all odds.

“Tell her that you love her. You’ve got nothing to lose,
and you’ll always regret it if you don’t.”
Love Actually

Real integrity is doing the right thing, knowing that nobody’s going to know whether you did it or not.

What would the world be like if we all had the ability to feel that someone is missing us? Like when someone is 10,000 miles away from you and they miss you so much, to the point where you actually feel it inside you. Imagine: you could be sitting there, drinking a cup of hot chocolate, and then suddenly have the ability to realize, “Hey, someone out there really misses me right now.”

Friendship is a gift
September 3, 2010

1 — Your Best Friend
2 — Your Crush
3 — Your parents
4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)
5 — Your dreams

6 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love
7 — Someone who always makes you happy
8 — Someone you wish you could meet
9 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to

10 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
11 — Someone you wish could forgive you

12 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
13 — The person you miss the most

14 — Someone from your childhood

15 — The one that broke your heart the hardest

16 — Yourself at 13

17 — Someone that pesters your mind – Good or bad
18 — Someone you want to give a second chance to

19 — The last person you kissed
20— The last person you made a pinky promise to

21 — Someone that changed your life


Dear Ashley,
I really don’t know what to make of our friendship. Sure, we were close. Best friends, twins… But were we really that close? I don’t think so. I didn’t tell you everything and you didn’t tell me everything. There were so many gaps in our relationship and we just didn’t realize it. And I think that is why it fell apart. We both just…gave up. I know exactly why each of us gave up, but what if we had held on a little tighter? Would that have changed anything? 
I think we are both happier now. I’m glad that you’ve made new friends that hopefully understand you more than I did. I know I’ve made new friendships that I am so thankful for. I’m learning not to take people for granted anymore, and I know I did that to you and I am sorry for that. But, I do feel like you still hold a grudge, because I hear you talk about me to Dana and I know that when we talk at John Muir it is all staged and fake. 
But, nevertheless, I think we’ve both reached good places. I hope all is well and that you have a bright future ahead of you!