Archive for December, 2010

With you right here
December 21, 2010

Don’t take anything personally. Nothing others do is because of you. What others say and do is a projection of their own reality, their own dream. When you are immune to the opinions and actions of others, you won’t be the victim of needless suffering.

You almost convinced me you were gonna stick around. But everybody knows, almost doesn’t count.

Have you ever thought that if one thing hadn’t happened, a whole set of things never would have either? Like dominoes in time, a single event kicked off an unstoppable series of changes that gained momentum and spun out of control, and nothing was ever the same again. Don’t ever doubt that a mere second can change your life forever.

It’s funny how you can be face to face with someone, and yet it
feels as though you’re on the other side of the world from them. 
They haven’t actually gone anywhere, but they might as well have. 
It’s one of the worst feelings to become acquainted with: 
to miss someone who’s literally right there.

The thing about us girls is that we tend to take our anger out on the new girlfriend rather than the old boyfriend. It’s like, even if its been months and she doesn’t even know who you are, we think she planned it all long to ruin our relationship.

We were in love once, weren’t we? I used to know his every move, but now it’s all a blur.  A visage of grass, old t-shirts, & brown eyes. How come I do this to myself? How come I couldn’t just stay in love with him?

I know a lot of people know who he is, but I also know there are not that many who got to see the side of the guy that I did. And that guy, well, I’ll never forget him. Not ever. I’ve learned so much about life and emotion from knowing him and I wouldn’t change a thing about it. Including the ending. Your heart needs to go through some bumps like these once in a while. Besides, he has made a monumental impact on me and on my life in these past few years. I know no matter how many years go by, my stomach will always do a little flip whenever I see that face.

Sometimes you just have to give up, and that’s okay. It’s alright to realize that you can’t save everything and everyone.

If he doesn’t chase you after you walk away, keep walking.

Jar of Hearts
December 5, 2010

This is the beginning of a new day. You have been given this day to use it as you will. You can waste it or use it for good. What you do today is important because you’re exchanging a day of your life for it. When tomorrow comes, this day will be gone forever. In its place is something that you have left behind. Let it be something good.

I hate how missing you hits me at the most random moments. When I get woken up in the middle of the night by my phone, and my first instinct is that it’s you. When a cheesy, girly pop song comes on the radio and I am hit by the image of you doing the silly dance you always do. It’s like I can just never escape you.

Everything you have been told is a lie. Things don’t happen for a reason. They just occur and you must deal with it, good or bad.  People will always leave you because the potential for better is there. They do not care if they have to step on top of you to get to euphoria. Everybody has somebody they use. And everybody, everybody lies. They all get mad and say things they don’t mean. But once they are said, they are out there, unable to be shoved back down your throat. Watch your tongue, but even more importantly, watch your back. There is always someone standing there ready to stab you.

‎”If you’re always looking for reasons not to be with somebody, then you’ll always find them. Sometimes you just need to let go and give your heart what it deserves.”

One Tree Hill

I’ve learned a lot these past few years, through my fake smiles & unseen tears, that friends sometimes are not forever & true love does not always last. The good memories stay with you but the good moments go by fast. But someone will always be there, someone that honestly does care.

Isn’t it amazing how the you can keep so much bottled up inside of you, and you can just walk around and nobody has any idea.

Most girls say they want a fairy tale, but you taught me that that’s not really what I want. I want someone who will make fun of me, and laugh
at my jokes that aren’t funny. Someone who will wrestle with me, and 
not let me win just because I’m a girl. Yeah, riding off into the sunset on 
a white horse would be nice, but playing thumb-war with you seems
so much better.

I am the kind of girl who enjoys the chase. I get a thrill when it comes to winning someone over and making them fall in love with me. Then when rough times in a relationship emerge, I run off kicking and screaming. I analyzed my actions once. I came to the conclusion that I’m afraid of getting too close to someone because I’m scared to get hurt. When a boy takes one step forward, I take three steps back. I’ve done this my whole life. It is my greatest downfall, the reason I have lost so many loves.

Destiny is for losers. It’s just a stupid excuse to wait for things to happen instead of making them happen.

Blair Waldorf

You’ve got to risk love. It doesn’t mean you’re never going to get hurt, but the pain you feel will never compare to the regret that comes from walking away from love.